Connection

February 6, 2020February 17, 2020Leave a comment

Connection by Valerie Parente

Tianna Thorn

I’ve been looking for a way out of this mind
And somewhere along the line I realized
that connecting to someone else was my way out
and that’s why I acted like it was do or die
when I recognized your third eye
I was crazy and intense and emotions were high
because I swore this connection was my only chance
to be freed from the pain I idealized
and when you say something I really want to know why
because finally I’m intrigued by a mind other than mine.

– Valerie Parente (2-6-2020)

Playtime

February 2, 2020Leave a comment

Playtime by Valerie Parente

He doesn’t know how emotions work
that’s why he plays with mine
like building blocks
towering so high.
But if you’re going to toy with me
then make me your doll
because I’d rather feel pretty
than be built up to fall.

"Sugar" by Valerie Parente

– Valerie Parente (2-2-2020)

Cruelty & Credulity

January 31, 2020February 2, 2020Leave a comment

Cruelty & Credulity by Valerie Parente

sunlight brings out my dark side

Not knowing what is normal has become the norm for me.
And not knowing what’s real has become my reality.
I’m trying to be mindful of what’s fabricated in my mind.
So the cruelest thing you could do is make me believe that my perception is make-believe.

– Valerie Parente (1-31-2020)

It’s Not You, It’s Me

January 29, 2020January 29, 2020Leave a comment

Margarita

It’s Not You, It’s Me by Valerie Parente

the problem isn’t you
it’s me
and my inability
to see you differently

– Valerie Parente (1-29-2020)

Playing With Storms (Diagnose Me)

January 28, 2020June 22, 2020Leave a comment

Playing With Storms (Diagnose Me) by Valerie Parente

I’ve got five different disorders and I can’t afford to be diagnosed with another
But ever since the grief I’ve feel like my brain has spawned a new monster
My emotions are so intense and I freak out then repent
People ask me why I acted out
and I honestly can’t remember why
I remember doing the deed
but I don’t remember why I felt it was necessary
all I remember is that I really truly believed in the feeling’s intensity
and I played with thunderous storms even though I don’t even like the noise
and I think that’s pretty scary
when you can go 25 years understanding the string between your actions and emotions
then suddenly don’t remember why you did something so intense
its like you’re sitting in a backseat watching yourself
there’s a barrier between you and what you do
a major disconnect
and I can’t even begin to try to figure out why
I just know that my mind has become so hard to find
I’ve got five other disorders that I understand inside and out
but I don’t understand the reasoning behind this new rage filled spree
It would be so much easier to address this if someone could just diagnose me.
Please, just diagnose this storm inside of me.
Because then I can begin to master the storms artfully.

The Storm Maker

– Valerie Parente (1-28-2020)

An Idiom for Comfort

January 23, 2020January 23, 2020Leave a comment

An Idiom for Comfort by Valerie Parente

I didn’t mean to overreact
But I was so damn tired of the same broken path
No, you weren’t the worst I’ve ever had
You were just the straw that broke the camel’s back.

– Valerie Parente (1-23-2020)

Matryoshka Dolls

January 21, 2020January 21, 2020Leave a comment

Matryoshka Dolls by Valerie Parente

I am an artist.
I was born to create.
I was created, to create.

We are infinite stories within stories.
Entire populations,
Entire worlds,
nested in mind after mind after mind after mind…

– Valerie Parente (1-21-2020)

Real Things

January 19, 2020January 19, 2020Leave a comment

Real Things by Valerie Parnete

You say that my fantasies aren’t real
but my fantasies influence my reality
far more than the things you say.

Cassiopeiae

– Valerie Parente (1-19-2020)

Love Again

January 17, 2020January 17, 2020Leave a comment

Love Again by Valerie Parente

Love is not finite. It does not have an end cap. You do not need to think twice about how you distribute it. Just because I love someone new does not take away from the love I have for another being.
When you love again, the love does not get divided; it multiplies.
And that is why you don’t need to feel guilty for loving again. You can love again. You are meant to love again. That is your infinite gift.