Ruins by Valerie Parente
If you don’t want to be there for me
that’s fine.
It’s your life to ruin
not mine.
– Valerie Parente (10-26-2019)
Category: Poetry
beauty from pain
beauty from pain by Valerie Parente
how uplifting it is to see
that I can be in horrendous pain
then write an uplifting piece
– Valerie Parente (10-22-2019)
The Longing
The Longing by Valerie Parente
The moment I stop needing
is the moment I stop feeling
I wouldn’t know what to do if I got what I want
And I wouldn’t have a damn clue where to start
I don’t want to always have to ask for permission
But I don’t trust the things my mind has been wishing
Because I’ve been using longing as my fuel
and I don’t know how else to guide my next move
Maybe that’s the problem with chasing a path
I start to identify with what I don’t have.
– Valerie Parente (10-18-2019)
Broken
Broken by Valerie Parente
You’re free from this world of suffering
and that’s a good thing
so why does it make me so sad?
Maybe to pray someone is at peace
means that I will never be.
– Valerie Parente (10-14-2019)
Vodka
Vodka by Valerie Parente
I’m a little bit tipsy
I’m a little bit numb
and I can’t handle my feelings
cause I’ve been feeling too much.
I’m a little bit sloppy
I’m a little bit drunk
and I want to be carefree
but I don’t feel good enough.
I’m a little bit dizzy
I’m a little bit buzzed
and I know that you need me
but I just want to feel loved.
– Valerie Parente (10-13-2019)
Fruition
Fruition by Valerie Parente
At what point do you give up
not because it’s a lost cause
but because you know you’re already enough
and the story you saw in your mind
played out perfectly in real time?
All that’s left is for the others to realize.
– Valerie Parente (10-2-2019)
My Dreams
My Dreams by Valerie Parente
I keep on wishing
someone will listen
as I try to make sense
of my mental illness
so I put it in print
then decided to distance
spent time with my best friend
then she went to heaven
but the world keeps spinning
so I keep on living
trying to make a difference
while I feel her within
I hope my story transcends.
– Valerie Parente (10-1-2019)
Old Soul
Old Soul by Valerie Parente
You think I was born yesterday
Because of all the things I don’t say
In a sense, yes, I’m inexperienced
But don’t mistake innocence with ignorance
We all have a third eye, the mind’s spy
Sometimes it’s best to pretend mine is blind.
I haven’t made the same memories as you
But the memories I’ve made give me a clue
It’s something called empathy, you learn as you live
Based on our own journey we learn what to give
And I’m giving off a vibe that I don’t recognize the signs
While I’m laughing inside because I’ve lived the same lie.
No I wasn’t born yesterday
I’m just an old soul in this new age
Recalling what it means to be human
Through a lens focused on how you’ve been
The question isn’t if I understand your side
The question is why do I still try.
– Valerie Parente (9-27-2019)
Good Grief
Good Grief by Valerie Parente
It’s strange how sympathy only lasts so long before people move on
And I’m not saying we should live our lives based on what we have lost
But good grief, my pain still feels so fresh
Meanwhile everyone else seems to forget.
Maybe one day my heart will no longer be broken in half
But the scar that heals over is a mark that will always last
And people say I’m too sensitive
People say someday I’ll mend again
But I can’t believe any other person truly understands the pain I’m in
Yes I understand that the shock wears off in time
But it’s hard to let go with a mind like mine
And if healing means leaving her image behind
Then I guess all I want is to be scarred for life.
– Valerie Parente (9-23-2019)
Inner Strength
Inner Strength by Valerie Parente
I’m just going to keep reminding myself that I’m worth it and hope it manifests on the surface because I’m not a secret to be kept when I emotionally connect and I’m ready for the next step.
– Valerie Parente (9-20-2019)
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