Projection by Valerie Parente
you never really did care, did you?
it was never about my feelings
it was about abiding your ego
and the anxiety that makes it seem whole
when in reality you’ve just been stuffing fear into a structure you call personality
fear of intimacy
fear of commitment
fear of emotions
it was never really about me not being good enough
it was about you maintaining your phobias.
– Valerie Parente (11-25-2019)
Emotional Depth by Valerie Parente
On the nights I can’t express myself
It’s because I feel underwhelmed.
The world of feelings is my fuel
and I’ll be damned if I don’t bruise.
If there is no emotional depth
then I am nothing but useless.
– Valerie Parente (11-24-2019)
Figure Out Your Feelings by Valerie Parente
I hate when people pretend to feel neutral about something
when they already care.
And I hate when you pretend not to want me
then miss me when I’m not there.
Please figure out your feelings
because I don’t know how much more I can bare.
– Valerie Parente (11-24-2019)
Sweet Poison by Valerie Parente
I’ve been chasing that feeling
it’s like being in love without the demons.
Dizzy. Giggling. Carefree. Confident. Lightheaded. Intoxicated.
Under a blissful spell
without needing someone else.
– Valerie Parente (10-29-2019)
Fruition by Valerie Parente
At what point do you give up
not because it’s a lost cause
but because you know you’re already enough
and the story you saw in your mind
played out perfectly in real time?
All that’s left is for the others to realize.
– Valerie Parente (10-2-2019)
Old Soul by Valerie Parente
You think I was born yesterday
Because of all the things I don’t say
In a sense, yes, I’m inexperienced
But don’t mistake innocence with ignorance
We all have a third eye, the mind’s spy
Sometimes it’s best to pretend mine is blind.
I haven’t made the same memories as you
But the memories I’ve made give me a clue
It’s something called empathy, you learn as you live
Based on our own journey we learn what to give
And I’m giving off a vibe that I don’t recognize the signs
While I’m laughing inside because I’ve lived the same lie.
No I wasn’t born yesterday
I’m just an old soul in this new age
Recalling what it means to be human
Through a lens focused on how you’ve been
The question isn’t if I understand your side
The question is why do I still try.
– Valerie Parente (9-27-2019)
Inner Strength by Valerie Parente
I’m just going to keep reminding myself that I’m worth it and hope it manifests on the surface because I’m not a secret to be kept when I emotionally connect and I’m ready for the next step.
– Valerie Parente (9-20-2019)
My Prayers by Valerie Parente
I worship through art
written word is my prayer
it is my recorded conversations with God
the art I make through my maker
and I am in love and in awe
of the world inside the creator
because the mental has spawned
when I transcribe to paper.
– Valerie Parente (9-12-2019)
Blessed by Valerie Parente
Strength. Compassion. Intelligence. Beauty. Courage. Faith. Love.
The very things that I prayed for in a companion were in me all along.
– Valerie Parente (8-12-2019)
Evolve by Valerie Parente
You’re not the love of my life
You’re just a writing prompt
Someone to empathize
While I learn to grow up.
You haven’t wasted my time
You gave me a new start
Memories that will align
With the person I become.
No I haven’t left behind
The person that I was
And learning by your side
Is what helped me evolve.
You taught me what it’s like
To have respect for myself
And I finally feel alright
Without someone else.
– Valerie Parente (8-11-2019)
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