beauty from pain by Valerie Parente
how uplifting it is to see
that I can be in horrendous pain
then write an uplifting piece
– Valerie Parente (10-22-2019)
Tag: poem
The Longing
The Longing by Valerie Parente
The moment I stop needing
is the moment I stop feeling
I wouldn’t know what to do if I got what I want
And I wouldn’t have a damn clue where to start
I don’t want to always have to ask for permission
But I don’t trust the things my mind has been wishing
Because I’ve been using longing as my fuel
and I don’t know how else to guide my next move
Maybe that’s the problem with chasing a path
I start to identify with what I don’t have.
– Valerie Parente (10-18-2019)
Broken
Broken by Valerie Parente
You’re free from this world of suffering
and that’s a good thing
so why does it make me so sad?
Maybe to pray someone is at peace
means that I will never be.
– Valerie Parente (10-14-2019)
Vodka
Vodka by Valerie Parente
I’m a little bit tipsy
I’m a little bit numb
and I can’t handle my feelings
cause I’ve been feeling too much.
I’m a little bit sloppy
I’m a little bit drunk
and I want to be carefree
but I don’t feel good enough.
I’m a little bit dizzy
I’m a little bit buzzed
and I know that you need me
but I just want to feel loved.
– Valerie Parente (10-13-2019)
Old Soul
Old Soul by Valerie Parente
You think I was born yesterday
Because of all the things I don’t say
In a sense, yes, I’m inexperienced
But don’t mistake innocence with ignorance
We all have a third eye, the mind’s spy
Sometimes it’s best to pretend mine is blind.
I haven’t made the same memories as you
But the memories I’ve made give me a clue
It’s something called empathy, you learn as you live
Based on our own journey we learn what to give
And I’m giving off a vibe that I don’t recognize the signs
While I’m laughing inside because I’ve lived the same lie.
No I wasn’t born yesterday
I’m just an old soul in this new age
Recalling what it means to be human
Through a lens focused on how you’ve been
The question isn’t if I understand your side
The question is why do I still try.
– Valerie Parente (9-27-2019)
Inner Strength
Inner Strength by Valerie Parente
I’m just going to keep reminding myself that I’m worth it and hope it manifests on the surface because I’m not a secret to be kept when I emotionally connect and I’m ready for the next step.
– Valerie Parente (9-20-2019)
The Fear I Long For
The Fear I Long For by Valerie Parente
The truth is I’m absolutely terrified
of being anything but absolutely terrified…
of being enough without having to prove myself
of feeling a touch without having to remove myself
of being the person I know I am
in front of someone who understands.
– Valerie Parente (9-16-2019)
Promise
Promise by Valerie Parente
I know I will see you again
when I am no longer me
and you are no longer the you I knew
but we will be together
in an infinite room.
“I Meant What I Said When I Said We Will Be Together Again” by Valerie Parente
– Valerie Parente (9-15-2019)
I Will Never Be The Same
I Will Never Be The Same by Valerie Parente
Everyone always says that things feel different…
when someone you love goes,
and you start to feel a gaping hole.
But I don’t see how that could be true…
because your life wasn’t just a phase,
you came and I will never be the same.
Because as I see it
What I believe
Is that when someone leaves
and leaves you with a mark
I think that proves
that they’re still with you.
– Valerie Parente (9-14-2019)
Paw Prints
Paw Prints by Valerie Parente
I’m not devastated like I always expected.
I’m better today than I was when she was still here in pain.
I truly believe that she is not gone, but has simply moved on.
So why is there still a sense of pain imprinted in my brain?
I did everything right, I said hi and goodbye and goodnight.
I showered her with praise and said I love you every day.
I created a childhood of her own and made the most of every milestone.
I always gazed at that little girl knowing that she wouldn’t be around forever and I cherished every memory that I made with her.
I did everything I was supposed to do.
So why do I feel pain when I see her paw prints? Why do I feel pain when I see her fur around the house? Why do I feel pain when I go to say goodnight and she’s not there?
Maybe because all these things signify the “past” since she has passed
but she does not feel like a memory
I still feel her with me, deep inside, just as much as I did when she was alive.
– Valerie Parente (9-2-2019)
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