My Prayers by Valerie Parente
I worship through art
written word is my prayer
it is my recorded conversations with God
the art I make through my maker
and I am in love and in awe
of the world inside the creator
because the mental has spawned
when I transcribe to paper.
– Valerie Parente (9-12-2019)
Paw Prints by Valerie Parente
I’m not devastated like I always expected.
I’m better today than I was when she was still here in pain.
I truly believe that she is not gone, but has simply moved on.
So why is there still a sense of pain imprinted in my brain?
I did everything right, I said hi and goodbye and goodnight.
I showered her with praise and said I love you every day.
I created a childhood of her own and made the most of every milestone.
I always gazed at that little girl knowing that she wouldn’t be around forever and I cherished every memory that I made with her.
I did everything I was supposed to do.
So why do I feel pain when I see her paw prints? Why do I feel pain when I see her fur around the house? Why do I feel pain when I go to say goodnight and she’s not there?
Maybe because all these things signify the “past” since she has passed
but she does not feel like a memory
I still feel her with me, deep inside, just as much as I did when she was alive.
– Valerie Parente (9-2-2019)
I’ll Miss You Until Forever by Valerie Parente
Girl,
You’re not gone
Despite the loss
You’re never lost
I know where you are
You’re in my heart.
And girl,
I don’t cry anymore
Because the last thing I hoped for
When you were still here on earth
Was for you to be free from your hurt.
Sweet girl,
I’ll miss you today and I’ll miss you the next
It will not be easy but I will do my best
Your life was my light and your peace is a promise
Life will go on but your impact will never end
I’ll miss you until forever when I see you again.
– Valerie Parente (8-25-2019)
Abby by Valerie Parente
I kept crying, anticipating how I was ever going to say goodbye
then I realized
I don’t need to say goodbye
she will always be with me
and I will see her again someday
just in a different place.
– Valerie Parente (8-22-2019)
Immaculate Introvert by Valerie Parente
I hate parties.
I always feel so out of place
like I don’t belong to the human race
because I can’t relate
to how other people operate
all the alcohol and games.
It’s not a problem with who I am,
it’s a problem with who I’m not
because that’s not what I want
when I think of the perfect job
I’d rather lose myself in thoughts
writing and drawings from my heart.
Creation feels better than partying,
creation is what I live to be
an artist on an emotional journey
making sense of the world consciously
that’s how I set my soul free
and be the best version of me.
– Valerie Parente (8-18-2019)
Veracity by Valerie Parente
You asked, “is this about me?”
I asked, “should it be?”
I think if you think it applies to you then you already have your answer
and I think if you try to avoid liking someone then it’s because there’s already something there
because you can’t avoid something that does not exist
and I’m sorry but I can see through all your bullshit.
Because I promised myself a long time ago that I’d always be honest with myself
and your problems come back to me because they’re the reason you give me hell.
– Valerie Parente (8-16-2019)
Blessed by Valerie Parente
Strength. Compassion. Intelligence. Beauty. Courage. Faith. Love.
The very things that I prayed for in a companion were in me all along.
– Valerie Parente (8-12-2019)
Evolve by Valerie Parente
You’re not the love of my life
You’re just a writing prompt
Someone to empathize
While I learn to grow up.
You haven’t wasted my time
You gave me a new start
Memories that will align
With the person I become.
No I haven’t left behind
The person that I was
And learning by your side
Is what helped me evolve.
You taught me what it’s like
To have respect for myself
And I finally feel alright
Without someone else.
– Valerie Parente (8-11-2019)
Your Apology by Valerie Parente
Don’t apologize to me.
Apologize to yourself.
Because I have so much love to give and you chose to deprive yourself of it.
– Valerie Parente (8-7-2019)
I Know Where I Stand by Valerie Parente
Tell me why different rules apply to me?
and tell me why you take everything I do so personally?
tell me why I have to tip toe on such fragile feet?
tell me why the slightest move makes you retreat?
just tell me why I get treated so damn differently?
I’m not asking because I want to know the answer, I already do
I’m asking because these are questions that need to be addressed through you
And I’m not going to tell you the answer because there would be no use
You’re going to have to figure it out for yourself and face your own muse
And when that time inevitably comes, you’ll know where to find me too.
– Valerie Parente (8-3-2019)
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