Egomaniac by Valerie Parente
I’m torn apart by this tragedy.
But in the eyes of a sane person
This has nothing to do with me.
So I feel ashamed and I try to stuff the pain down.
Because the last thing a tragedy needs
Is a selfish person like me.
– Valerie Parente (10-24-17)
Why I Apologize by Valerie Parente
I apologize because I am less than perfect.
I apologize because I cannot read your mind.
I apologize to prove I am aware of my presentation.
I apologize to negate anything I do that you might dislike.
I apologize because I cannot be everybody’s inspiration.
I apologize to beat you to the punch.
I apologize to try and predict all you foresaw.
I apologize because I cannot say everything at once.
I apologize before you get the chance to see my flaws.
I apologize to seem perfect.
– Valerie Parente (10-16-2017)
It is a fallacy to believe that embracing your pain means wallowing in melancholy as you let it overpower you. Truthfully embracing your pain means facing your melancholy until the melancholy loses its power over you.
– Valerie Parente (10-14-2017)
Hindsight of the Falsehood by Valerie Parente
I thought a lot about things that weren’t true,
and took for granted the innocence of something new.
Some feelings more common than I realized,
sculpted from hormones, wrongly idealized.
Written off as young love gone wrong,
no more than a dramatic falsehood all along.
Turning fleeting feelings into fixations,
a pruning brain learning the process of iterations.
But I am older now and I know the truth,
New wisdom can only enrich my youth.
– Valerie Parente (10-14-2017)
Normal by Valerie Parente
Tell me what it’s like.
To not obsess. To feel and not get addicted to the emotion. To be a fleeting presence of mindfulness in each moment. To care for a subject without surrendering full control of your brain.
How does it feel to be normal?
Because I never wanted to know until I met you.
“I do not want to go back to my fantasy land, but I cannot handle reality without your hand.” by Valerie Parente
– Valerie Parente (10-8-2017)
To Be Human by Valerie Parente
To learn what it means to be human
to breathe meaning into this life
is all I could ever ask for.
To feel the liberation of selflessness
to want for someone no less than the best
is fulfilling enough to be left unsaid.
To not just go through all the motions
but to grow and thrive with emotion
is the hope I try to vocalize.
To care about a soul other than mine
to grant solace to another mind
is the only answer I would need.
– Valerie Parente (9-30-17)
Lady Luna and the Light Inside by Valerie Parente
Lady Luna has so much light confined inside a heart as dark as night.
She loves being near the sun but it hurts to shine
Because the light she feels inside grows bigger and bigger every night
But the heart of night remains the same size.
Lady Luna does not want to waste the limited time
Determined by a stubborn sun as beautiful as the very light she hides.
She does not want to embarrass herself with another try
Like a pessimist tries to embrace the bright side.
Lady Luna tries so hard to meet the sun at night
Longing to split apart and reveal the light inside
And show the waves the blinding spot provides.
But she is too fragile and shy in her lunatic state of mind.
Until she can find the right time she writes…
“I have so much light for you crammed inside my heart, and it just keeps growing and growing and becomes more painful to hold inside me and only me. I long to give this overflowing light to you but you are so locked shut. I keep reaching out to share these rays with you but you only open tiny fractions at time. And I am getting so physically exhausted by the mental strain of this effort. Believe me, it is always worth giving another try, because you are worth more than anything this universe can comprehend, but all this energy exertion is taking its toll on me. My heart has so much light inside, and I do not think the light can fit much longer without breaking my heart in half.”
– Valerie Parente (8-26-17)
Essence by Valerie Parente
Every heuristic that binds me to my super restricted ego goes away when I’m with you.
– Valerie Parente (8-12-17)
Natural by Valerie Parente
I had no idea how much I cared
Until behaviors that I could not explain started kicking in
I started feeling without daydreaming
I started laughing without meaning
I started helping without intending
I started sacrificing without resenting
I do not force an emotion
But a natural force compels my mood
I do not intend to cry
But the tears begin to pool
I do not consciously try to think
But the sad thoughts venture through
I do not understand what is happening inside
I do not have a stance on what I cannot define
All I know is how much I care
With a new capacity I had no idea was there.
Now I realize that this feeling came from
Nature’s most beautiful miracle, called love.
– Valerie Parente (8-8-17)
Trust the Stars by Valerie Parente
What is meant to be is already unfolding
Promises we send in space and time
Keep your faith through the darkness of night
And the right pathway will be realized.
Trust the stars
They know your heart.
Destiny is your relationship with the universe
The stars reflect the dust you are made of.
Guardian angels glowing down from above
Writing constellations in a language called love.
Trust the stars
Wherever you are.
The awe that you feel in today
Is not constrained to the starry sky
Whenever you forget about your stellar guide
Remember, you are made of the same light.
Trust the stars
They got you this far.
– Valerie Parente (7-2-17)
valerieparente 