Grand Scheme by Valerie Parente
I always felt like my mind was too big to fit inside me
that any attempt at fully articulating my thoughts would surely be a masterpiece
because the universe is always trying to whisper her poetry
and if I can capture just one conscious stream
then all the world’s pain would be worth it in the grand scheme.
– Valerie Parente (12-3-2019)
Projection by Valerie Parente
you never really did care, did you?
it was never about my feelings
it was about abiding your ego
and the anxiety that makes it seem whole
when in reality you’ve just been stuffing fear into a structure you call personality
fear of intimacy
fear of commitment
fear of emotions
it was never really about me not being good enough
it was about you maintaining your phobias.
– Valerie Parente (11-25-2019)
Self-Inflicted by Valerie Parente
For once I just wish I could hurt someone else’s feelings without feeling any remorse;
because I apologize in vain and I internalize the pain
and I don’t want to feel any more
for the people who don’t feel my hurt.
– Valerie Parente (11-17-2019)
This Is What It Means To Grow Up by Valerie Parente
I shouldn’t pick fights just because I feel lost
I shouldn’t place blame when no one is at fault
People might do you wrong but just smile on
No one cares who’s right in the big scheme of it all.
You may be frustrated but the petty things won’t last
At the same rate good times fade and I really hate that
What better reason to appreciate the things that you have
Because no pain equates to the concept of the past.
I always say I’m so sick of the games and the tears
But I’d rather have it rough than resent all those years
Because one of these days one of us isn’t going to be here
And all that will be left is how we made each other feel.
– Valerie Parente (10-27-2019)
beauty from pain by Valerie Parente
how uplifting it is to see
that I can be in horrendous pain
then write an uplifting piece
– Valerie Parente (10-22-2019)
Fruition by Valerie Parente
At what point do you give up
not because it’s a lost cause
but because you know you’re already enough
and the story you saw in your mind
played out perfectly in real time?
All that’s left is for the others to realize.
– Valerie Parente (10-2-2019)
My Dreams by Valerie Parente
I keep on wishing
someone will listen
as I try to make sense
of my mental illness
so I put it in print
then decided to distance
spent time with my best friend
then she went to heaven
but the world keeps spinning
so I keep on living
trying to make a difference
while I feel her within
I hope my story transcends.
– Valerie Parente (10-1-2019)
I Will Never Be The Same by Valerie Parente
Everyone always says that things feel different…
when someone you love goes,
and you start to feel a gaping hole.
But I don’t see how that could be true…
because your life wasn’t just a phase,
you came and I will never be the same.
Because as I see it
What I believe
Is that when someone leaves
and leaves you with a mark
I think that proves
that they’re still with you.
– Valerie Parente (9-14-2019)
My Prayers by Valerie Parente
I worship through art
written word is my prayer
it is my recorded conversations with God
the art I make through my maker
and I am in love and in awe
of the world inside the creator
because the mental has spawned
when I transcribe to paper.
– Valerie Parente (9-12-2019)
Immaculate Introvert by Valerie Parente
I hate parties.
I always feel so out of place
like I don’t belong to the human race
because I can’t relate
to how other people operate
all the alcohol and games.
It’s not a problem with who I am,
it’s a problem with who I’m not
because that’s not what I want
when I think of the perfect job
I’d rather lose myself in thoughts
writing and drawings from my heart.
Creation feels better than partying,
creation is what I live to be
an artist on an emotional journey
making sense of the world consciously
that’s how I set my soul free
and be the best version of me.
– Valerie Parente (8-18-2019)
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