This Is What It Means To Grow Up

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This Is What It Means To Grow Up by Valerie Parente

I shouldn’t pick fights just because I feel lost
I shouldn’t place blame when no one is at fault
People might do you wrong but just smile on
No one cares who’s right in the big scheme of it all.

You may be frustrated but the petty things won’t last
At the same rate good times fade and I really hate that
What better reason to appreciate the things that you have
Because no pain equates to the concept of the past.

I always say I’m so sick of the games and the tears
But I’d rather have it rough than resent all those years
Because one of these days one of us isn’t going to be here
And all that will be left is how we made each other feel.

Mirrored

– Valerie Parente (10-27-2019)

The Longing

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"Ardor" by Valerie Parente

The Longing by Valerie Parente

The moment I stop needing
is the moment I stop feeling
I wouldn’t know what to do if I got what I want
And I wouldn’t have a damn clue where to start
I don’t want to always have to ask for permission
But I don’t trust the things my mind has been wishing
Because I’ve been using longing as my fuel
and I don’t know how else to guide my next move
Maybe that’s the problem with chasing a path
I start to identify with what I don’t have.

– Valerie Parente (10-18-2019)

Broken

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"Blue Rose" by Valerie Parente

Broken by Valerie Parente

You’re free from this world of suffering
and that’s a good thing
so why does it make me so sad?

Maybe to pray someone is at peace
means that I will never be.

 

 

 

– Valerie Parente (10-14-2019)

Vodka

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Vodka by Valerie Parente

"The Rush" by Valerie Parente

I’m a little bit tipsy
I’m a little bit numb
and I can’t handle my feelings
cause I’ve been feeling too much.

I’m a little bit sloppy
I’m a little bit drunk
and I want to be carefree
but I don’t feel good enough.

I’m a little bit dizzy
I’m a little bit buzzed
and I know that you need me
but I just want to feel loved.

– Valerie Parente (10-13-2019)

I Hurt Me

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I think my OCD creates problems that can only exist inside my own head so that I don’t have to face real problems outside of my head. The idea of encountering strife and struggle posed by circumstance or other human beings is the greatest violation I can imagine. I control what troubles me. I hurt me. You don’t get to hurt me. I do that.

Liza

– Valerie Parente (10-4-2019)

Fruition

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Fruition by Valerie Parente

At what point do you give up
not because it’s a lost cause
but because you know you’re already enough
and the story you saw in your mind
played out perfectly in real time?
All that’s left is for the others to realize.

Śūnyatā

– Valerie Parente (10-2-2019)

 

My Dreams

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My Dreams by Valerie Parente

In Touch pagesI keep on wishing
someone will listen
as I try to make sense
of my mental illness
so I put it in print
then decided to distance
spent time with my best friend
then she went to heaven
but the world keeps spinning
so I keep on living
trying to make a difference
while I feel her within
I hope my story transcends.

 

– Valerie Parente (10-1-2019)

Old Soul

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Old Soul by Valerie Parente

You think I was born yesterday
Because of all the things I don’t say
In a sense, yes, I’m inexperienced
But don’t mistake innocence with ignorance
We all have a third eye, the mind’s spy
Sometimes it’s best to pretend mine is blind.

I haven’t made the same memories as you
But the memories I’ve made give me a clue
It’s something called empathy, you learn as you live
Based on our own journey we learn what to give
And I’m giving off a vibe that I don’t recognize the signs
While I’m laughing inside because I’ve lived the same lie.

No I wasn’t born yesterday
I’m just an old soul in this new age
Recalling what it means to be human
Through a lens focused on how you’ve been
The question isn’t if I understand your side
The question is why do I still try.

Felicia

– Valerie Parente (9-27-2019)