Rise Above by Valerie Parente
You beat me to the punch
Knocked me upside the head
But I got off the ground once
I can do it again.
– Valerie Parente (11-29-2019)
Category: Poetry
Resilience
Resilience by Valerie Parente
The signs were pretty clear
when I cried out for help
and you pretended not to hear
when I scratched myself
then wiped blood on the mirror.
Did you really want to be the one
to teach me that life isn’t fair
to teach me that nobody really cares
to teach me that the world owes me nothing
and that I will always have to fight for my fair share.
Today I’m going to vent
but tomorrow I’ll get even,
because I’m done with this abusive environment
and how you broke me in pieces.
So many pieces of me
but you’re the one who broke
you let your ugly run free
through every word that you spoke.
The sharpest pieces of me
I’ll use those shards to slit your throat
and nobody else will have to be
a punchline to your cruel jokes.
– Valerie Parente (11-27-2019)
Projection
Projection by Valerie Parente
you never really did care, did you?
it was never about my feelings
it was about abiding your ego
and the anxiety that makes it seem whole
when in reality you’ve just been stuffing fear into a structure you call personality
fear of intimacy
fear of commitment
fear of emotions
it was never really about me not being good enough
it was about you maintaining your phobias.
– Valerie Parente (11-25-2019)
Emotional Depth
Emotional Depth by Valerie Parente
On the nights I can’t express myself
It’s because I feel underwhelmed.
The world of feelings is my fuel
and I’ll be damned if I don’t bruise.
If there is no emotional depth
then I am nothing but useless.
– Valerie Parente (11-24-2019)
Figure Out Your Feelings
Figure Out Your Feelings by Valerie Parente
I hate when people pretend to feel neutral about something
when they already care.
And I hate when you pretend not to want me
then miss me when I’m not there.
Please figure out your feelings
because I don’t know how much more I can bare.
– Valerie Parente (11-24-2019)
Self-Inflicted
Self-Inflicted by Valerie Parente
For once I just wish I could hurt someone else’s feelings without feeling any remorse;
because I apologize in vain and I internalize the pain
and I don’t want to feel any more
for the people who don’t feel my hurt.
– Valerie Parente (11-17-2019)
Asphyxiation
Asphyxiation by Valerie Parente
When I think a negative thought
I hold my breath;
try to kill it off
by suffocating it to death.
– Valerie Parente (11-6-2019)
Enough
Enough by Valerie Parente
Don’t tell me you miss the old me
when the old me wasn’t good enough for you.
– Valerie Parente (11-12-2019)
Temporary Fix
Temporary Fix by Valerie Parente
I felt fuzzy and like my vision was delayed
and I couldn’t keep up with the things my mind wanted to say
and it was nice not to have to think twice
because I was too busy trying to walk in a straight line.
My mind is always racing
and it was nice to slow down the pacing
all the worry, insecurity, anger…
It was too blurry to see my problems
so I didn’t even need to solve them
finally some peace of mind, without the effort or time.
– Valerie Parente (11-11-2019)
Break Me Down
Break Me Down by Valerie Parente
I don’t know why you’re okay
breaking me down
you break me down
maybe it’s because when I’m in pieces
you don’t have to look at the big picture.
– Valerie Parente (10-18-2019)
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