Dear Abby by Valerie Parente
I miss you more today
Than I missed you when you left
I know you’re out of pain
But it’s still hard to accept
The fact that I can’t see you another day
is so damn hard to comprehend
And it’s driving me insane
Knowing you only exist in my head
But maybe that’s my strength
Not a sign of a weakness
Because if you can still exist in my brain
Then I’ll never be alone again.
– Valerie Parente (9-9-2019)
Paw Prints by Valerie Parente
I’m not devastated like I always expected.
I’m better today than I was when she was still here in pain.
I truly believe that she is not gone, but has simply moved on.
So why is there still a sense of pain imprinted in my brain?
I did everything right, I said hi and goodbye and goodnight.
I showered her with praise and said I love you every day.
I created a childhood of her own and made the most of every milestone.
I always gazed at that little girl knowing that she wouldn’t be around forever and I cherished every memory that I made with her.
I did everything I was supposed to do.
So why do I feel pain when I see her paw prints? Why do I feel pain when I see her fur around the house? Why do I feel pain when I go to say goodnight and she’s not there?
Maybe because all these things signify the “past” since she has passed
but she does not feel like a memory
I still feel her with me, deep inside, just as much as I did when she was alive.
– Valerie Parente (9-2-2019)
Abandon Me by Valerie Parente
I felt completely abandoned by someone that I made accommodation after accommodation for to make sure they were never uncomfortable or sad.
And that hurts.
Because when I was in my darkest hour you didn’t have the decency to say a word.
When I lost the light of my life you decided it would be a good use of your time to leave me too.
To be honest, I don’t want your apology any more. I just want you to leave me alone. Let me be. And please, go on and abandon me.
– Valerie Parente (9-1-2019)
I’ll Miss You Until Forever by Valerie Parente
Girl,
You’re not gone
Despite the loss
You’re never lost
I know where you are
You’re in my heart.
And girl,
I don’t cry anymore
Because the last thing I hoped for
When you were still here on earth
Was for you to be free from your hurt.
Sweet girl,
I’ll miss you today and I’ll miss you the next
It will not be easy but I will do my best
Your life was my light and your peace is a promise
Life will go on but your impact will never end
I’ll miss you until forever when I see you again.
– Valerie Parente (8-25-2019)
Abby by Valerie Parente
I kept crying, anticipating how I was ever going to say goodbye
then I realized
I don’t need to say goodbye
she will always be with me
and I will see her again someday
just in a different place.
– Valerie Parente (8-22-2019)
Immaculate Introvert by Valerie Parente
I hate parties.
I always feel so out of place
like I don’t belong to the human race
because I can’t relate
to how other people operate
all the alcohol and games.
It’s not a problem with who I am,
it’s a problem with who I’m not
because that’s not what I want
when I think of the perfect job
I’d rather lose myself in thoughts
writing and drawings from my heart.
Creation feels better than partying,
creation is what I live to be
an artist on an emotional journey
making sense of the world consciously
that’s how I set my soul free
and be the best version of me.
– Valerie Parente (8-18-2019)
Veracity by Valerie Parente
You asked, “is this about me?”
I asked, “should it be?”
I think if you think it applies to you then you already have your answer
and I think if you try to avoid liking someone then it’s because there’s already something there
because you can’t avoid something that does not exist
and I’m sorry but I can see through all your bullshit.
Because I promised myself a long time ago that I’d always be honest with myself
and your problems come back to me because they’re the reason you give me hell.
– Valerie Parente (8-16-2019)
Blessed by Valerie Parente
Strength. Compassion. Intelligence. Beauty. Courage. Faith. Love.
The very things that I prayed for in a companion were in me all along.
– Valerie Parente (8-12-2019)
Evolve by Valerie Parente
You’re not the love of my life
You’re just a writing prompt
Someone to empathize
While I learn to grow up.
You haven’t wasted my time
You gave me a new start
Memories that will align
With the person I become.
No I haven’t left behind
The person that I was
And learning by your side
Is what helped me evolve.
You taught me what it’s like
To have respect for myself
And I finally feel alright
Without someone else.
– Valerie Parente (8-11-2019)
Your Apology by Valerie Parente
Don’t apologize to me.
Apologize to yourself.
Because I have so much love to give and you chose to deprive yourself of it.
– Valerie Parente (8-7-2019)
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