Typical Feeling

Typical Feeling by Valerie Parente

It’s not fair for me to attach myself to memories
because the things that are important to me
aren’t necessarily admired equally
it doesn’t matter how strongly I believe
feelings are not facts, they’re just brain chemistry
and maybe if I accept that as my reality
then I wouldn’t seem like this OCD creep
memorizing feelings that nobody else reads
its a habit that’s no longer helping me breathe
because appreciating details gets pretty lonely
and reading your energy exerts my energy.

I guess it was just a typical feeling
that I glorified beyond its meaning
then modified my priorities like a chameleon
and fell for traits that promote teasing
a mistake I’ve made before despite reason
but this time I finally stopped believing
and I’ll never go back to daydreaming
because this match was never even
just a rigged game I used for healing
and in that way I was also scheming
I guess there’s nothing special about my demons.

– Valerie Parente (6-16-2020)

An Empath’s Tangent

An Empath’s Tangent by Valerie Parente

Kyori

Sometimes I think I’m feeling my own feelings but I’m really just feeling your feelings because I’m so sensitive to your senses and I make sense of it like it’s my sensations so I start to care too much when you don’t care at all and I’m not sure how to take care of myself without trying to take care of someone else.

– Valerie Parente (3-12-2020)

Hyper-Sensitive Super Power

Hyper-Sensitive Super Power by Valerie Parente

I am a super sensitive being
I attach myself to feelings
even though I know beyond reason
that the attachment causes a deep heaviness
as I force the emotions to linger in my chest
terrified by the way people simply forget
it’s a bad habit that makes me look insane
because I remember every single thing you say
yet I wouldn’t have it any other way
because I can see light in a world of shadows
the hyper-awareness weeds out the people who are shallow
and inflicts deeper meaning in the people I value
I know there is power in my sensitivity
that this is either going to be the thing that kills me
or the thing that saves me.

dark angel

– Valerie Parente (3-4-2020)