Typical Feeling

Typical Feeling by Valerie Parente

It’s not fair for me to attach myself to memories
because the things that are important to me
aren’t necessarily admired equally
it doesn’t matter how strongly I believe
feelings are not facts, they’re just brain chemistry
and maybe if I accept that as my reality
then I wouldn’t seem like this OCD creep
memorizing feelings that nobody else reads
its a habit that’s no longer helping me breathe
because appreciating details gets pretty lonely
and reading your energy exerts my energy.

I guess it was just a typical feeling
that I glorified beyond its meaning
then modified my priorities like a chameleon
and fell for traits that promote teasing
a mistake I’ve made before despite reason
but this time I finally stopped believing
and I’ll never go back to daydreaming
because this match was never even
just a rigged game I used for healing
and in that way I was also scheming
I guess there’s nothing special about my demons.

– Valerie Parente (6-16-2020)

Love Vs. Obsession (One in the Same)

Love Vs. Obsession (One in the Same) by Valerie Parente

What is the difference between love and obsession?
Because the two are synonymous in a mind like mine.
And I’m really not trying to cross a line
but I can’t control the way feelings reorganize my mind.

Why is obsession only beautiful
when obsession is mutual?

You say I have to apologize when I care in that beautiful way
Everybody else gets to experience love without the shame
Now the girl with OCD starts to love and it’s called insane
But I really can’t help it that love and obsession have always been one in the same.

You Never Know Who's Hiding

– Valerie Parente (4-24-2020)

Hyper-Sensitive Super Power

Hyper-Sensitive Super Power by Valerie Parente

I am a super sensitive being
I attach myself to feelings
even though I know beyond reason
that the attachment causes a deep heaviness
as I force the emotions to linger in my chest
terrified by the way people simply forget
it’s a bad habit that makes me look insane
because I remember every single thing you say
yet I wouldn’t have it any other way
because I can see light in a world of shadows
the hyper-awareness weeds out the people who are shallow
and inflicts deeper meaning in the people I value
I know there is power in my sensitivity
that this is either going to be the thing that kills me
or the thing that saves me.

dark angel

– Valerie Parente (3-4-2020)

Innocently Me

Just A Simple Swing

Innocently Me by Valerie Parente

I refuse to feel guilty for being innocently me.
I do nothing to compel, I just act like myself.
You’re not really scared of me,
you’re scared of how you feel when you’re around me
and how you feel when you’re around me is not my responsibility.

– Valerie Parente (3-1-2020)

Rather Be Haunted

Rather Be Haunted by Valerie Parente

Emotions haunt me like ghosts
manipulating the energy inside of me
drawing from what I want the most
because my intensity sets the ghosts free.

The more meaning in my interactions
the more meaning in my poetry
because these interpersonal relations
have me evolving spiritually.

I used to identify as the tortured artist
but now I identify as a human being
creating words so painfully honest
Hurt, feel, heal, then repeat.

The pain never starts out pretty
but the ghosts give me an artistic opportunity
in turn I give them the satisfaction of being seen
while I turn those emotions into a masterpiece.

It isn’t easy learning through ghosts
but if its between getting what I wanted
and the force of emotional growth
then I would rather be haunted.

Haunted

– Valerie Parente (2-25-2020)

Figure Out Your Feelings

Figure Out Your Feelings by Valerie Parente

I hate when people pretend to feel neutral about something
when they already care.
And I hate when you pretend not to want me
then miss me when I’m not there.
Please figure out your feelings
because I don’t know how much more I can bare.

Screw You

– Valerie Parente (11-24-2019)

Self-Inflicted

Self-Inflicted by Valerie Parente

For once I just wish I could hurt someone else’s feelings without feeling any remorse;
because I apologize in vain and I internalize the pain
and I don’t want to feel any more
for the people who don’t feel my hurt.

Seppuku

– Valerie Parente (11-17-2019)

Vodka

Vodka by Valerie Parente

"The Rush" by Valerie Parente

I’m a little bit tipsy
I’m a little bit numb
and I can’t handle my feelings
cause I’ve been feeling too much.

I’m a little bit sloppy
I’m a little bit drunk
and I want to be carefree
but I don’t feel good enough.

I’m a little bit dizzy
I’m a little bit buzzed
and I know that you need me
but I just want to feel loved.

– Valerie Parente (10-13-2019)

Humanity

Humanity by Valerie Parente

To live is to feel
To feel is to emote
To emote is to communicate
To communicate is to connect
To connect is to love
And to love is to live.
Don’t waste your life
fighting your feelings.

– Valerie Parente (7-6-2019)