Lost by Valerie Parente
You are not lost.
I just lost my ability to find you.
– Valerie Parente (2-11-2020)
Tag: loss
Surreal
Surreal by Valerie Parente
It’s so hard to believe that from now on when we talk about your presence
it’s going to be in past tense.
What we feel is what is real to us
and we still feel that you are here with us.
– Valerie Parente (2-10-2020)
Time Is Not Real
Time is not real. Time is just the means that we perceive energy in the universe. All that was, is. All that will be, is. There is no timeline. Just everything in existence including our consciousness entangled in one.
And I think we can find peace in that fact, because when we lose someone, when they’re no longer “here”, they still are. The energy does not disappear. Our ability to recognize their energy might disappear, but that is no indication of the reality that they still exist now and infinitely. When there is no timeline, you cannot lose someone. Ever.
– Valerie Parente (2-9-2020)
Love Again
Love Again by Valerie Parente
Love is not finite. It does not have an end cap. You do not need to think twice about how you distribute it. Just because I love someone new does not take away from the love I have for another being.
When you love again, the love does not get divided; it multiplies.
And that is why you don’t need to feel guilty for loving again. You can love again. You are meant to love again. That is your infinite gift.
– Valerie Parente (1-17-2020)
My Dreams
My Dreams by Valerie Parente
I keep on wishing
someone will listen
as I try to make sense
of my mental illness
so I put it in print
then decided to distance
spent time with my best friend
then she went to heaven
but the world keeps spinning
so I keep on living
trying to make a difference
while I feel her within
I hope my story transcends.
– Valerie Parente (10-1-2019)
Good Grief
Good Grief by Valerie Parente
It’s strange how sympathy only lasts so long before people move on
And I’m not saying we should live our lives based on what we have lost
But good grief, my pain still feels so fresh
Meanwhile everyone else seems to forget.
Maybe one day my heart will no longer be broken in half
But the scar that heals over is a mark that will always last
And people say I’m too sensitive
People say someday I’ll mend again
But I can’t believe any other person truly understands the pain I’m in
Yes I understand that the shock wears off in time
But it’s hard to let go with a mind like mine
And if healing means leaving her image behind
Then I guess all I want is to be scarred for life.
– Valerie Parente (9-23-2019)
Promise
Promise by Valerie Parente
I know I will see you again
when I am no longer me
and you are no longer the you I knew
but we will be together
in an infinite room.
“I Meant What I Said When I Said We Will Be Together Again” by Valerie Parente
– Valerie Parente (9-15-2019)
I Will Never Be The Same
I Will Never Be The Same by Valerie Parente
Everyone always says that things feel different…
when someone you love goes,
and you start to feel a gaping hole.
But I don’t see how that could be true…
because your life wasn’t just a phase,
you came and I will never be the same.
Because as I see it
What I believe
Is that when someone leaves
and leaves you with a mark
I think that proves
that they’re still with you.
– Valerie Parente (9-14-2019)
Dear Abby
Dear Abby by Valerie Parente
I miss you more today
Than I missed you when you left
I know you’re out of pain
But it’s still hard to accept
The fact that I can’t see you another day
is so damn hard to comprehend
And it’s driving me insane
Knowing you only exist in my head
But maybe that’s my strength
Not a sign of a weakness
Because if you can still exist in my brain
Then I’ll never be alone again.
– Valerie Parente (9-9-2019)
Paw Prints
Paw Prints by Valerie Parente
I’m not devastated like I always expected.
I’m better today than I was when she was still here in pain.
I truly believe that she is not gone, but has simply moved on.
So why is there still a sense of pain imprinted in my brain?
I did everything right, I said hi and goodbye and goodnight.
I showered her with praise and said I love you every day.
I created a childhood of her own and made the most of every milestone.
I always gazed at that little girl knowing that she wouldn’t be around forever and I cherished every memory that I made with her.
I did everything I was supposed to do.
So why do I feel pain when I see her paw prints? Why do I feel pain when I see her fur around the house? Why do I feel pain when I go to say goodnight and she’s not there?
Maybe because all these things signify the “past” since she has passed
but she does not feel like a memory
I still feel her with me, deep inside, just as much as I did when she was alive.
– Valerie Parente (9-2-2019)
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